I don't want to do this.

Dear A1 Creative Writing,


"People don't change, they reveal who they are". I hope that doing this doesn't change the way I like to write.. cuz ill be honest with you I don't want you to know who I am. I hate being judged. But whatever senior year and ill never see any of you again (; lol jokes but really. I know my blog isn't the best and im sorry. I wish that I could make the creative juices flow more easily but I can't. There is so much going on in my life that the last thing I think about is my blog post. At first I tried to force my self to be creative and then I just gave up. People have their own talents and unfortunately writing is not one of mine. I wish it was. Why is it so hard to be creative? I don't understand and it honestly pisses me off. Although I wasn't the greatest writer I found this fun for me because I was able to find things that I liked and that stood out to me. I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE ANYONE ELSE. I know people in this class that work on their blog post forever, good for you. But blogs don't mean everything to me. SCREW THE VIEWS, SCREW THE COMMENTS. They don't matter. Im not one to stand in front of the class, to read a poem in front of the class, or to even raise my hand. I sit in the back and don't usually say a word, people don't even know that I exist anymore. I go to hair school and this is my only class. I hope this doesn't surprise you or disappoint you, but I am...

Sheridyn Meadors






Don't judge me.

Look Within

Words that touch my soul

Kindness

Grace

Love

Courage 

Joy

Escape

Life

Trust

Tenderness

Wanderlust

Tenderness

Friendship

Peace

Eternal

Twinkle

Warmth

Sunshine

Compassion

Sparkle

Release

Hope

Shine

Refreshed 

Blessing

Getaway

Heart

Happiness

Stars

Overcome

Peace

Blossom

Possibility

Growth 

Heaven 

Dreams

Timeless

Content

Lovely

Endless

Safe

You are beautiful

I'm afraid

I'm afraid of being forgotten

I'm afraid of waking up in the morning and being the only one left 

I'm afraid of being alone 

I'm afraid of fish nibbling on my toes under the mucky water 

I'm afraid of letting my parents down 

And making my friends frown 

I'm afraid of not living up to expectations 

I'm afraid of not being me. 

Ⓘⓜ ⒶⒻⓇⒶⒾⒹ

It Isn't That Easy

When I think about life, I think about all of the beauty that surrounds me on this earth. I think of the birds chirping, lawn mowers running, snow plowers scraping, carpool moms honking. There is so much more to life then all of these things listed but sometimes its hard to really step back and imagine if this is how you want to look at life. THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO IT!! As I have gotten older I have had to learn that life isn't easy and we all have trials that we have to endure. If we don't have trials then what are we really here for? Exactly. Nothing. I have learned that my parents won't always be by my side. I need to take a leap and not rely on them for everything that I do. Trying to become Independent is probably one of the hardest things that I have done, With it comes so much responsibility, and lessons. It won't be easy but it'll be worth it. A lot of people take life for granted and that needs to stop because it is beautiful and it is a blessing!